What it boiled down to was a trust issue. God wants to heal us. He wants to remove our sinful behavior. He invites us to come to Him. I wanted to be in control of my own life. Do what I wanted to. To give control of my life over to God was to admit that I couldn't run my own life. I hadn't had much luck with running my own life. The results were clear enough to everyone who knew me and had to become clear to me. As I reflected on the choices I had made I could see I was going downhill fast. I ask God to make me willing to be willing to give my life over to Him. God has our best in mind. He actually has a plan for our lives. Our choice is whether we keep control and continue going our way or to allow Him to work out His plan for our lives. God wishes us no ill will. He desires us to live harmoniously with Him so we can finally have peace in our lives. The choice is ours.